do i deserve this??
April 15th, 2007 by jhayneeI have never played with anybody’s feelings coz I am too afraid
that it would happen to me also…I have always been very cautious when it comes
to my feelings coz one of my greatest fears is getting hurt…And in order to
avoid it, I have guarded my heart carefully… God knows how hard I tried to
control my feelings…But I guess nobody in this world could ever escape from the
getting hurt… What is painful right now is knowing that I can’t complain coz it
was partly my fault why I am where I am right now…I have a lot of questions but
I am just too scared to hear the possible answers…I know that I don’t have any
right to demand any set up or anything that’s why I am feeling so restless and
hopeless right now…I know I said that I am willing to wait but how could I possibly
do that when I can feel that I am the only one who wants to work this thing out…I
wasn’t forced when I said that and I really meant what I said…I don’t want to
think that you played with my heart…Damn!I strongly refuse to accept that
thought coz I wanted to think that what’s between us is real…=’(
